chapter one: thinnness

sam: Hello again!
sam: My, we seem to bump into each other quite often.
sam: quite!
sam: it's an astonishing coincidence.
sam: I believe it is.
sam: we haven't spoken in some time, yes?
sam: yes, yes. my apologies.
sam: well, there are so many preoccupations.
sam: certainly.
sam: it's only natural that we'd stop talking to each other.
sam: yes, tragic.
sam: but no less inevitable.
sam: indeed. how sad. do you have a headache?
sam: why, yes, I do. how did you guess?
sam: you don't get one like that every time you feel out of place?
sam: out of place?
sam: yes, like when you leave a room and go back in to find something's moved.
sam: but you didn't touch it?
sam: yes! exactly. you don't feel that, just day to day?
sam: well, I do now, maybe because you mentioned it.
sam: ah, the Heisenberg Uncertainty jive now?
sam: that by naming the elephant in the room, it's no longer that name.
sam: yes, yes.
sam: what was before a kind of thinness is now just a headache.
sam: but a remarkable heavy one, though.
sam: yes, I am a bit annoyed.
sam: annoyed?
sam: yes, bothered.
sam: but annoyed, too?
sam: I can be both at the same time.
sam: well, which one more?
sam: well, you'd have to look into the source of both the annoyance and the bother.
sam: what annoys you?
sam: my headache. it bugs me. it's uncomfortable. I would rather not have it in my head. I didn't invite it.
sam: and what's bothering you?
sam: such a more intense word.
sam: bother?
sam: against annoys. bother is much more deeply troubling, don't you think?
sam: yes, yes. well?
sam: oh, yes. well, it would have to be the source of the headache.
sam: that odd, thin feeling?
sam: no, that heavy headache.
sam: I thought that was only an annoyance?
sam: no, the source of it, I mean.
sam: ah. you mean the feeling that annoyed you before has now evolved into a source of great discomfort. a bother.
sam: no, not at all.
sam: oh?
sam: no, it's the source of the headache that bothers me.
sam: I'm not sure I understand.
sam: it would take some time to explain.
sam: as with all things.
sam: yes, how silly of me.
sam: already forgotten!
sam: it's the difference between hating the sinner and hating the sin.
sam: ah.
sam: you don't understand?
sam: you're bothered not by the headache, but the fact that you have a headache.
sam: yes.
sam: because something must have given you a headache.
sam: yes.
sam: it's a symptom of a larger problem, you fear?
sam: I believe so.
sam: well, what's that problem?
sam: everything is thin.
sam: ah.
sam: I believe we've just exited the realm of our respective comprehension, old friend.
sam: as do I, as do I.